You light me up

I started this blog as a way of dealing with my complex mind. It has been more than once that I got comments on the ‘pessimistic nature’ of my posts. I am not an optimistic human being, never have been, never will be. Writing about my struggles and the feelings that accompany them, has helped me out in ways that I can’t describe. It has liberated me and left me free to focus on other things.
Struggles, dark feelings & heavy thoughts, these are stuff that I’m ‘good at’. I have dealt, as have most people, with a lot of them in the past. And I have learned how to embrace this side of me, writing being one possible outlet for the darkness inside me.

Recently something happened, or better yet; someone. She’s the person that takes away my darkness.
She talks and I become lighter, she smiles and I become brighter. When I’m around her nothing is complex, everything looks seemingly easy. It’s terrifying, cause I’m getting used to her brightness and I’m not sure if I could go on without it. Life’s a risk and sharing yourself with another person is a greater one.

But the way she looks into my eyes and smiles, tells me that this is definitely a risk worth taking…
It’s true what they say, people in love do shine the brightest!